LOST (after the first viewing)

LOST has meant so much to me since I discovered it in 2006 with Mercedes in my living room. It's the reason I started watching TV again, so I feel it's only fitting I write a blog about how I feel about the series finale. SPOILER ALERT: If you have not seen the finale, you may not want to continue.



I was so deeply disturbed by how the show ended, and I still am. I am trying to reconcile what the writers did with the meaning I had put into the final season. I didn't get to sleep till 4:00, and I woke up at 8:45. I dunno. There's a lot to handle, and I feel like I got broken up with or something.

I loved the flash sideways from the moment they first introduced it in January. Everything was beautiful. I loved the way people were remembering each other and their time on the island. It moved me. I really feel the writers cheapened the beauty by saying that they were dead in the flash sideways. It means in another world, these people would not have impacted each other's lives at all. Throughout the entire season, I understood that these people were finding each other; events were bringing them together, and they were fated to be in each other's lives. But that wasn't true.

When Jack said, "because I died too," I couldn't believe it. I felt hurt, betrayed, angry because the flash sideways was beautiful and moving. It meant something different to me than it turned out to be, and I'm still trying to reconcile it.

It was poetic that the show ended in the reverse of how it began. It was fitting that Vincent stayed with Jack this time. Its good to know that everyone but Hurley and Ben and Jack made it off the island, which is still there. Jack saved the island, dying for what he believed in. (Mark, I know you don't agree with this, and I'd love to hear why. I can see it both ways. Maybe everyone did die on the island, but that leaves Aaron an orphan too. I can totally see the plane taking off and them making it home to live long lives after. Christian tells Jack "many died before you and many long after." Jack wouldn't just imagine seeing the plane too before he closes his eyes for the final time. He died knowing that he saved the island, but that he also saved his friends, which were more important than the island to him.)

I just can't believe that it all meant nothing, the flash sideways....I never thought one conversation could impact me so much. I seriously don't know what to do now except buy the entire series and watch it over and over again until I become okay with the flash sideways ending. I mean, at least they weren't in a snow globe.